Last weekend I was a little puzzled as to why I didn't have much of an appetite - not even for my homemade chocolate chip cookies that I made. On Sunday I stayed home with Micah because he was running a fever - and I ended up taking TWO naps that day and still felt exhausted. Monday was fine, but still no appetite. On Tuesday I was at the office in the afternoon and started having what I thought were gas pains. Took some gas-x, but the pain got worse and worse. I had to go home early and called Ray to get off work to go pick up the kids. The pain was SO horrible I couldn't even stand up straight. I almost went to the emergency room but waited to see if the pain subsided - and it did. On Wednesday I felt like I had been run over by a semi. I was weak. I was dizzy. Still no appetite. I just felt ill. Thursday was better; didn't really have pain until the afternoon when I (finally) went to see the doctor. My doctor had imminent concern about my gall bladder - which is what I figured it was. He tried to get a sonogram completed that day, but wasn't able to schedule anything until Friday morning. The lady that completed my sonogram pushed on my side until I thought I would burst - it hurt so bad!!!
Of course - like just about all my health issues - all the blood work and the sonograms of my abdomen came back NORMAL. But my doctor (who actually called me himself to share the results) is still convinced it's my gallbladder. He advised that I go on a clear liquid diet (basically fast for two days, drinking only water) to see if that helps. He really wanted me to go to the ER for further testing and see if surgery would be appropriate this weekend - but I was able to sneak away with fasting for two days and checking back in on Monday.
So here I am - still no appetite (which makes fasting easier), and the pain is just as bad as it was yesterday. No difference. Thankfully I'm still able to function, but can't lift anything heavy (like a Mr. Micah). My mom informed me that Sjogren's can cause chronic gall bladder disease.
This year has been a doozy as far as my health and stress levels go. I've been trying these past two weeks to schedule time off from work - and it looks like my scheduling didn't mean anything if I have to have emergency surgery. Bah. I'm just hoping I'll be well enough to do the music for vacation Bible school on the 11th. Only God could make that happen!
I know I'm in His hands. I know that whatever He's doing right now is for my good. Yes, I'm in pain - even more pain than usual. But I know He'll use this to bring Him glory and honor and to help others in the future. I'm so grateful I have His promises to hold onto no matter what organs I have to give up.
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
2 Corinthians 12:9
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